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Well here we are…
It’s been a journey that’s for sure…
Brief(maybe) Introduction of sorts….
I first got into the L/S in 92 after discovering my now ex had trashed our wedding vows while we were both deployed. I used the S side to cope with the pain and anger and trauma in my head. I made 50 Shades look like a circus act. Where I was at that point and what I was doing had it been without consent would have been criminal. Met a lady that I truly owe my life to. What started out as FwB turned out to be me being mentored in what a Dom truly is. That catapulted me into a vibrant community where I learned and practiced and honed my skills and reined in the negative.
When I met and eventually married my wife and now sub. I had been removed from that and had essentially walked away from the L/S for over a decade. I couldn’t hope to imagine to ever revisit it again. Never gave her credit of being open enough to even discuss it.
That changed in Feb of this year when our marriage started to implode through actions of my own making. Ultimatums were tossed out and a few were returned. Many tears were shed on both sides. That brings us to where we find ourselves now. She has opened my eyes to her. I am seeing her from a point of view that for almost 17yrs I didn’t know existed. Her willingness to learn and let me guide and help her grow amazes me on a daily basis. For the first time I feel truly happy and complete. That I don’t have to hide or repress such an intricate part of what makes me who I am.
And I’ll be bluntly honest it scares the bejesus out of me to have my wife as my sub. The balancing act of hus/wife and Dom/sub is a huge learning curve for both of us. But WOW are the rewards ever worth it. We are at the best most open and honest place that we have ever been. Initially when we first started the majority of what she would read was the typical single D/s playlationships and caused her great concern. My former sub recommended this site to me and after browsing around it’s a huge relief to find such a great resource that applies directly to our situation. Looking forward to being here and learning and contributing as I can…
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