Katfish,
Welcome aboard,
I think I am holding it back out of… not sure why
I held back in the beginning as well… I believe that most of us do.
For myself, it was two fold. First, I really wanted to be sure that I didn’t do something wrong or domineering that crossed a not too well defined line, ending this new found dynamic. After all the Dominant is the one in charge, the leader. Second, I felt as though this lifestyle that my lk had asked me for may just be a fad. As soon as I fully committed she would be finished with it.
Have you ever noticed that the biggest obstacles in our lives are often those obstacles that are in our own heads?
The values and principles that I write about here on husDOM™ I didn’t develop since we became D/s-M. I had developed those values over my entire lifetime. I wasnt going to domineer my lk. It was in my head…
lk had never been more sincere or raw about her feelings in her entire life. She knew what she wanted and it wasn’t a fad, it was a lifestyle. That was my biggest hold up. lk writes about a Formal Acceptance. Like most of the things that we write about, they aren’t something just created for our websites. They are the things that we did for one another out of a need. lk hadn’t named it when she knelt for me. It was authentic and genuine in the moment. It also moved my soul and removed any doubt about ‘her’ commitment. Isn’t it funny how my thoughts of ‘her’ commitment effected my own commitment? It was crazy when I think about it!
I can’t explain how welcoming, mature and supportive it immediately felt.
This is a description that I am extremely proud of. Our community is comprised of the greatest members online. I am proud of what we have all created.
Best wishes,
Mr Fox